She’s Two-ish!

Today is Jillian’s birthday! Whoo hoo! If i’m going to be real about it… it’s a very happy and sad occasion. It’s Jillian AND Anne’s birthday. I’m not going to lie or ignore my real feelings… this hurts. I miss my baby and I want to hold her… its been two years. My heart aches. It did take lots of prayer and… I don’t know… determination (?) to get myself out of bed. I could have just laid there and cried my eyes out, but I have a sweet little birthday girl and 4 other children to spend the day with! Lay in bed crying? or Celebrate the good parts of the day! I’ll take celebrating! That is our family motto this year, “There is much to celebrate”  It’s hanging up in our home with bunting and everything reminding us all that everyday has its ups and downs, but there is always MUCH to celebrate!

So lets remember Anne, and her super special self and remember this is still a very special day. Our Jillian is two! Sweet Anne held on to life, as difficult as that was… and because of that her sister survived. She is forever our sweet daughter and hero.

Speaking of heroes… Today also brings to our hearts the memories of how much our friends and family helped us during the difficult time surrounding the girls birth. AND of our doctors and nurses who so lovingly took care of us. Not that we don’t think of them daily. I think of the girls nurses and doctors every time Jilllian does anything wonderful! No joke… I send them video clips. We would have headed up to UCSF today if Jillian didn’t wake up with a drippy nose! I’m THAT annoying! 😉

With each kiddo I’ve tried to take a picture with the same object next to them to show how much they have grown… usually is in an old rocker, or a teddy bear. A couple of my friends make a cake each month and take a photo of the baby with the cake. Well… Jillian has a bath tub. I couldn’t get over how when she was finally able to take somewhat of a real bath it was such an ordeal AND how small her bath tub was! Jeramy and I watched videos of her first bath last night… the first thing we both commented on was the beeps! Oh! All the beeping! Then we heard and saw Josie and we about melted. Josie…

Each month her first year I took a picture of her in her tub. After that I stopped. She hasn’t grown all THAT much since her first B-Day. 😉 Her hair has! I think its all that olive oil they have me adding to her food! 😉

 

 

Happy Birthday Jillian and Anne! We love you BIG! And we are SO very thankful for you two! XOXOX